Coming from the barren and frightening land of time with a psychopathic spouse and his totally self-absorbed clan, I look at the metamorphosis as a birth - painful contractions, the indignities of being poked and prodded by doctors, and the hopeful expectations. My hopeful expectations materialized in a new lease on me, so to speak. I find myself compassionate and caring, but no longer a push over to be drained of energy to serve the whims of others. I am no longer afraid.
Just as Christopher Walken playing Gabriel in "The Prophecy" Trilogy discovers, God didn't forsake him...or me. Life is filled with shining moments, mundane periods, and even trials. Somehow I now know that the answer to the question, "who is doing the viewing" of all this is me. Not the one enmeshed in anguish or a very small scope of action, but the bigger and grander energies and spiritual plane to which I am linked as a wheel within a wheel.
Is there some grand scheme of God's? I believe so. Sometimes we may become too engrossed in the ideas of intellect and analysis. The personal ethics that we use as our guideposts are something more than pleasing others and being as we feel we need to be for the benefit of different presences. WE are the impetus to expanding the life force of our stay now on this timeline. Just as in the children's movie, "The Never Ending Story," we must let go of fear of the past...fear of choices going awry...and seek to bring an ever-expanding creation of the best of humanity. This makes us All greater in this very moment.
AM I sappy now? Maybe, and yet I have a strength to cut ties that work to harm the spirit of me. Even in the work arena. There are times when we must let go in order to allow new projects, endeavors, and ways of attracting goodness. Trust is involved. AND faith. Emmet Fox calls hope the weaker sister of faith and I believe this. To understand faith one has to know a bit of pain, survival, and rebirth - first hand.
Who knew such a great gleaning of bright and shining newness of thought could be birthed from the horrors of the barren landscape of dealing with psychopathy? THAT in itself is a miracle. What other glorious developments will occur today? Bring that awareness of God, however you perceive Him, into your life this moment...whether you can agree with the concept of energies or a Divine Presence. By being the best of ourselves, we join with that in others and we are all bigger, grander and more fully powerful. I believe in destiny and choice.
"We should give meaning to life, not wait for life to give meaning to us." ~Tim Walters
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